A very thankful Thanksgiving

Turkey, mashed potatoes, green beans galore… What more could you want for a perfect meal- especially when eating for two!? Besides the great food and being with family I get to go home to Palm Beach which is by far one of my favorite places in America. It’s warm and sunny year round and the water is crystal blue… plus I live on the other side of Worth Avenue – the best shopping strip in America – and in walking distance of a Starbucks {stay tuned for a future post about my obsession with Starbs}. Thanksgiving has always been an underrated holiday to me – no one is really excited about it until it has come and gone… unless you are excited about the days off of work or school {greatness… am I right?!}. But when Turkey Day comes we all kind of stop, reflect, and realize how truly thankful we are. I think as a country we can easily forget how great we have it! This year I have placed sticky notes in random places to remind me that “Today, I am thankful”. and this year I have a lot to be thankful for. Thankful for a family that loves me regardless of my mistakes, friends that will travel to see me when I can’t travel, a home to call home, food a plenty, and my sweet baby Max.

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Repeat daily : “Today, I am thankful.”
This year I have found a whole new meaning for Thanksgiving. I can easily say this year has been one of the toughest years of my life. I don’t talk about it much but, damn it’s been hard. Graduating school made me terrified to move on; from friends, my college boyfriend, the places I knew, and the overall comfort I had grown accustom too the past four years. Shortly after I found out I was pregnant with Max. Fear, anger, disbelief, and most of all sadness took over my life. Why was something I had prayed for since I was little turning my life completely upside down. The element of surprise has never been one of my favorites and to this day I could still do without it. How was I going to ever be able to bring a child into the world I was so scared of? I never wanted to be a single mom, never, but here we are and I have never been so thankful for how that happened. The man I loved blessed me with the greatest gift, Max, new sense of hope, and a new definition of love. Hearing my baby’s heartbeat for the first time brought back those same feelings I felt the day I found out I was pregnant… I mean, I took 4 pregnancy tests… this is really happening. But one feeling trumped all of those negative thoughts. Thankfulness. From being told my chances of having kids was slim to being blessed with this gift, I was so overwhelmed. I remember my mom asking what was wrong when I saw him on the ultrasound for the first time and I honestly couldn’t answer, and some days I still don’t believe this is real. How God knew that this was what I needed in my life, I will never know. But I am oh so thankful for His plan and giving me the greatest gift on earth. The element of surprise surprised me. I have a lot to be thankful for, a home, food on the table, friends and family who has stood behind me on my worst days, clothing and shoes galore, a beating heart, but I am mostly thankful for Max. He has given me more strength than I honestly know what to do with and a love that is only growing stronger. I can’t wait till I have my baby in my arms so I can tell him how thankful I am for him every day. Repeat daily: “Today, I am thankful.”

XOXO, Kate

“You’re not a mess. You’re brave for trying.”

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